uncomfortable

Today... its a bad day? my good buddy in army got into trouble. when he was around, we were just chit chatting... having meals together... sms one another... see girls... talk kok... haha. but till today, when i saw him left, knowing he will not be around for the next 7 days, then i realize, it's sum kinda pain? how amazing is God's creation, w/o much ice breaking, me and my army buddy just some how bonded? we share our life... share our schedules. i really do miss his presence. i am straight still! haha! but its e brotherhood which people talk about in army. i really pray to You Lord, that U watch over this young man, for he is Your child too, You will lay Ur hands on him, protect him, shelter him, speak to him and change his heart, make this a chance for U to mould him to be a stronger man, so that he will be more mature. i look forward to next week, for his return back to camp. definitely i will want to hear more about him and his moulding process! :)

For this past while, i have been moving on and on, working harder n harder in army, and yup, my army career is progressing smoothly! :) thank God for that, thank God for the capable skills You have planted in me, i will definitely use it to serve U. all these while my mind always trying to make a choice.. whether to commit into a new relationship. i am afraid. i don't want to plunge in too fast. i may go Australia to study for years till i get my honors... u r surely going off other countries... is it possible to go on? umm... hard choice for me, i really would love to go for it... cos yah... er hum er hum lah... :) i wonder: did u actually saw my hand-phone wallpaper on that day in that eatery shop? i felt u did. i felt your attitude towards me changed after u saw it. will u think i am some weird guy or maniac. haha... just, i wonder...

so YUP! that's me for now! i am enjoying army currently! 1 person's pay, 3 person's job! that's how busy i am! haha... but i really do enjoy the busyness! still able to cope well and excel! thank God for letting me experience how working in secular world is! heehee!

i miss seeing u...