deep thoughts

hmmm... just another day for me again, have been on the bed most most of the time.. haha. have been tinking whether i should carry on competitive basketball when i recover. i noe bball is a big part of my life, i know its a talent God gave.. but. tinking of injuries, dragging parents down, cnt go out, cnt go church, cnt play drums, cnt drive, bed ridden, all these weigh much more than 'a big part of my life'. i got nightmares again and again, bout how i fall, twist e knee, ligament snapped, e pain, e agony in my head at that moment, it was never good.

God You show me Your way, God You show me if she can be my claire. i wan You to choose, i want Your best choice, not mine 2nd best choice. i miss You. i miss u.